Silver Suite

So it was that we moved. She had her own room and I had mine. They were on opposite ends of the apartment. She started taking the running start classes at the community collage and started dating a collage boy there. Before long she found out that when she graduated that year she would have scholarships and she would be moving out of state for collage at the end of the year.
She didn’t talk to me much about her sex life for obvious reasons but from what I picked up she was hot and heavy with this new guy. I would see them sitting in his car at night when I was coming home from friends houses and our stuff seemed a million miles away. Like a long ago dream that never happened. We didn’t have much time to hang out or talk once the school year started and being which she was a year ahead of me all I heard about was collage. I felt like I had lost her completely. I realized in her mind I had become just her dorky little brother.

Me on the other hand I had the women just lining up at the door. Ok if you paid attention to the prologue you know that’s a crock of shit. I said it there that I had still never been laid and that was when I was 19 at this point in the story I was still only 16. Puberty was over yet I still was going at it as much as possible. I did it while driving or in public again, generally it’s a freaking miracle I never got caught. I should have many times.
I did start dating her friend Abby. We never went all the way but she was into doing stuff that might get us caught. She loved the thrill of it as much as I did. We fooled around so many times at her house with her door open and her parents home. I’m lucky I’m not dead. If her dad would have walked in 90 percent of the time we were in her room I would have been. The funny thing is that he thought with the door open things were safe.

As much as I liked Abby I still never felt for her what I felt for Katie. Abby liked movies but I could never get her to talk, or read for that matter, books. I always felt like something was missing. I think when it came down to it I was into her much more because of my own sense of risk and we together had really pushed that factor. But I knew I was in love with Katie, Abby was a good replacement but never the same. More like a patch on you favorite geans.

By the next January Katie and I were living together but I saw her less then before we all had moved in. She was always at school or with her boyfriend. It had gotten to the point where she often didn’t come home for days. Our parents were so into each other and their whole romance they didn’t even notice. I felt more alone around the house then ever.

I decided by then to just try harder to make the relationship with Abby work. One day we skated quite a ways on the trail and pulled off to a secluded spot to make out. We kissed and I sucked her breasts. I was really starting to like having a steady girlfriend.
I loved her boobs, and the fact that she let me play with them pretty much anywhere anytime. Abby liked to show her breasts but she was very shy about everything else. She didn’t however have a problem pulling me out when ever she wanted to play with me. We had so many close calls it was insane.
The worst of our close call came at the movies. We were in the back row and we got so into it there that I had her tank top and bra pulled down and I was sucking her breasts right there. She unzipped my pants, reached in and stroked me. I slid my hand up her skirt and fingered her. She slid down her seat and kneeling in front of me, not even fixing her bra breast still exposed she pulled me out of my pants and sucked my dick for the first time right there with people only a couple rows ahead of us. I blasted her in the mouth and she spit into the isle. She sat back up in her seat and ate a mouth full of popcorn as I sucked her breast again and put my fingers back inside her. When she had finally came she fixed her bra back into place and I finally put myself back into my pants. Only moments later an usher came in walked up and down the rows and left again.

We were both excited and scared by coming that close to getting caught. She said that if her dad would have found out we wouldn’t ever be aloud to see each other again. So that was the first and last time we went that far in a movie theater.
A few weeks later I finally finished drivers ed and got my licence. This opened up new doors for us. We could make out in my car anywhere we wanted from that point on. We didn’t need to sneak around her house or the movies anymore. For her public exposure in a car was her new turn on.

For as much fun as we were having Abby felt it was best to still wait to go all the way. She was happy to give me head as much as I wanted but she still held on to that one last thing she thought was most important.

Over the rest of that school year my relationship to Abby progressed to the point where we were fooling around every minute we were alone. We had fun doing things in plane sight at the park of the beach. We nearly got caught all the time.
During this time I missed my sister very much. We lived in the same house but we couldn’t have lived farther apart. Things to me couldn’t have been worse then my 17th birthday. It was June and Katie was to graduate soon. The little comfort I took from the whole situation was that soon she would be leaving for collage and I wouldn’t have to see her every day. Maybe then I could finally get over her. She came home from school a week prior to my birthday red faced and crying. She said she had broke it off with her boyfriend but wouldn’t give any details. I tried to put my arm around her and talk to her but she said no and walked away.

Katie walked into my room not long after I woke up on my birthday. It was a Saturday morning and my parents had left early that day to get my grandmother. She lived 4 hours away and was coming to stay with us for a couple of weeks for my birthday and Katie’s graduation.
Katie was standing over me bitting her lower lip.
“Hey sis, what’s up?”
“I wanted to talk to you.......” She had a tear in her eye, “I’m leaving for collage soon and........ you haven’t really talked to me since before we move in.”
“I........” was all I could get out. I was confused and slightly angry. It was her not me that had stopped being close to me!
“I........... thought you wanted space,” was all I could manage.
“No,” she said coldly, tears rolling down her face, “What I wanted............ what I’ve been waiting for........... since that night before we moved in here.......... what I’ve needed to hear.............”
“What?” I asked her.
“God your so..................UUUUHHHH,” she cried, “You still can’t say the words.” I finally understood.
The nights we spent together, sharing a bed. I ran through the conversations in my head as best I could remember them. I realized they had a double meaning. She was saying to me what she thought I had wanted to hear, but I now realized that underneath she was asking me to commit to my real feelings.
It had been almost a year and only now did I understand that she had been asking me to tell her I loved her. I realized that now that nothing on those three nights had been about the sex, it was love. I felt horrible realizing that I was so stupid and I had hurt her.
My eyes grow big from shock as I realized that she had broke up with her boyfriend FOR ME, the day after everything had happened with us that first night. Not only had I not realized that was the true reason for the break up, I made things worse by hooking up with her friend Abby not long after.
Katie turned to leave and I grabbed her arm.
“What now you have something to say?” She was furious.
“Katie...... I ..........” I started but couldn’t get it out. I was so scared. What would it mean for me to tell her the truth now? I was having conflicting emotions. I loved her, Dreamed of her yet I had spent so much time trying to forget all that, focusing on my girlfriend now.
“Katie I’ve wanted ..............” I never got to finish my comment as there came a knock at the front door, “I’ll get the door. Go wash your face and I’ll come talk to you in a couple minute.”
I got up and through on a pair of jeans and left my room.