Lush Window

Through the night we danced a few more times, and soon the crowd began to thin out. We decided to leave as well, it was getting late. On the ride back to Jennifer’s the topic of Christmas came up.

“What are you doing for Christmas ?”, she asked .

“I have no plans, probably spend a quiet day at home.”, I answered.

“You’re not going to your mother in law’s for dinner ?”, she asked.

“No, they have been invited out for the day this year.”, I responded.

She then asked me if I wanted to go with her over to her parents house for dinner. She explained that her entire family was gathering and it would be a nice day.

“No, one should be alone on Christmas.”, she explained.

“I have heard that.”, I answered, “But, I am used to it. Its really not that big of a deal.”

“Well it is to me.”, she replied, “If you don’t go with me, then I will bring you some food back on my way home.”

I could see that my excuses were not going to fly so, I agreed to letting her stop over Christmas day , later that evening, to drop off a plate.

Chapter Eleven

Being off on Christmas Eve, it gave me a chance to get the entire house cleaned and all the laundry done. I went to the market, bought groceries and returned home. I was putting away the groceries when the phone rang. It was Beth. I just didn’t have the heart to answer it. I let voice mail pick it up and finished putting away the groceries. When I was done, I sat in my chair and listened to the message.

“Hey Jeff, its me, I.. I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas. I know its not what you …… I mean…..I was hoping…..Oh hell, take care, talk to you later.”, was the message.

Funny, I thought. We went from being so close, to an unsigned letter and a strained voice mail in a few months. Life changes so fast sometimes, you can’t keep up. That night I did a lot of thinking about Beth. As hard as it was to accept, it would be extremely difficult to be with Beth. I had no clue how the family would react, then I know Lance would be as difficult as he could be. Perhaps, this is for the best. I decided to call it a night about eleven and go to bed. As I climbed into bed, I realized that a year had passed since my first encounter with Beth. Somehow, it had not seemed that long ago.

The phone woke me up the following morning about nine-thirty. I looked at the clock, surprised at the time. I answered the phone, it was my mother in law.

“Merry Christmas, Jeff.” she said, “Dad and I love you.”

“Merry Christmas Mom, I love you too.”, I replied.

It was always hard for us during the holidays. Even after all this time, you never really get over it. She then asked me if I had spoken to Beth. I told her no, but that she had called. She went on to tell me that Beth and Lance had reconciled and he had moved back in. I had really figured as much, so I wasn’t overwhelmed by the news. I could tell by the tone in my mother in law’s voice she wasn’t elated by the news. If you only knew, Mom, I thought.

The day passed slowly and I had a lot of thinking to do. Early that evening, I had come to two conclusions. One, any thought of a relationship with Beth was over and two, I had no clue as to how to explain to Jennifer that I was just not interested in another relationship. She of course had no way of knowing about Beth, and I had no intention of telling her. I just felt that I was better alone, it worked for me. And deep down in my heart, did I really think anyone could replace Susan ?

Jennifer called around six, she was on her way over. I had everything done, so I just watched TV until the doorbell rang. I went to the door, opened it and invited her in. She was dressed in blue jeans, a red sweater and white blouse. She looked really nice. I closed the door behind her and led her to the great room.

“Wow, your house is gorgeous.”, she said, “Not what I pictured for a single man.”

“I can’t take credit for it Jen, I didn’t decorate it.”, I replied.

She had a card board tray with two plates of food, covered in plastic wrap. She offered them to me and asked me to sit down and eat. She had brought enough for both of us, so I asked her to join me. We sat at the table and had a very nice dinner, the food was excellent. We cleaned up and she asked if she could see the rest of the house. I obliged giving her the grand tour. Finally I took her out to the rear of the home where the sun room was. I had this room built about two years before Susan died and it was one of her favorites. The room had a complete glass wall across the back that looked out into the garden. In one corner, I had a very large Jacuzzi, the rest of the room was decorated with wicker furniture with floral cushions. The floor was slate tile, and there was a flat screen TV mounted to the adjacent wall, so you could sit in the Jacuzzi and watch TV. I could tell by her excitement, Jennifer liked the room.

“Now I could definitely relax in here.” , she exclaimed with a smile. “Too bad , I didn’t bring a suit with me.”

“Maybe another time.”, I offered her, “I am never very busy. It never gets used anymore anyway.”

We went back to the great room and sat down. She seemed very interested in my past and somehow the conversation drifted to Susan. After two hours, I think she had probably heard my entire life story before , during and after Susan.

“I can tell how much you love her.”, she said, “You get a certain look in your eye when you talk about her.”

“I still miss her everyday.”, I said looking down.

“I know.”, she replied, “I can tell.”

She then asked me if I had ever entertained the idea about another relationship. I told her, not really, that I had grown comfortable living alone and never really gave it much thought. She pretty much told me her life had gravitated to the same place. It was kind of surprising because Jennifer was an extremely attractive, very educated woman. Looks and money usually don’t last long in the single market. I had never been the kind of man who is comfortable around women. I see some guys that are smooth as silk when they talked to women. I am the exact opposite. Susan always told me that is what made me attractive to women. They love the innocent little boy persona that I gave off. And like Susan told me, with me it’s the real thing, it’s not an act.

“Jeff, can I ask you a question.”, she asked, “And please be honest with me.”

“I’ll try.”, I replied meekly.

“Are you attracted to me at all ?”, she asked.

Once again, the kind of question that I just am not good at answering.

“I think your very attractive , Jen. Downright gorgeous.”, I replied, “Why do you ask ?”

“Well……. I was just wondering…. You know….most guys after one or two evenings out, they always try to take things further….., she answered.

I went on to try and explain to her why I was so guarded around women. No one can understand how someone feels who lost the love of their life at such a young age. There are all sorts of cliché’s that are used, but none of them worked for me. You feel what you feel, you can’t change it, or at least I couldn’t. Then after all those years, I let my guard down with Beth, only to see things fall apart. Of course I couldn’t tell her about Beth, so I skirted the issue as best as possible.

“Then let be honest with you.”, she stated, “I enjoy being with you. I feel very secure when I am with you. You make no demands, your very easy to be with.”

“I guess what I want to know is……. Do you think we might have a future together ?”, she asked shyly.

To be honest, I had never really considered anything along those lines with Jennifer. I had always really felt that Beth would come to her senses. That and along with the fifteen year age difference between us, made a relationship not something possible.

“I never gave it any thought.”, I replied.

“Oh.”, was all she said,” I was kinda hoping…… oh, never mind.”

“No, what did you want to say ?”, I interrupted.

“Well, I was kind of hoping, we could…go out together New Year’s Eve?”, she answered.

Suddenly my mind raced back to last New Year’s Eve and the party at the club. Where had the time gone? All at once, I felt a cold breeze on my neck, bringing me back to reason. I don’t know what made me speak out but I did.

“Sure, I would love to go.”, I blurted, “You have anywhere in mind ?”

“Well yes, Every year my best friend gives this huge party. I always go alone, but I would very much like you to take me.”, she said.

“Ok, it’s a date.”, I smiled.

Chapter Twelve

The week passed quickly, Jen and I talked several times during the week finalizing arrangements for the party. Even though I had not talked to Beth in several weeks, I did notice Lance had moved back home. I tried to put it out of my mind, it was beyond my control.

We arrived at the party about nine o’clock that night and Jen introduced to me to all of her friends. Several I had met previously at the office party for Christmas. Finally Jen introduced me to Carrie, her best friend, the hostess of the party.

“Ahhhhh, so your Jeff.”, she said, extending her hand.

“Is that a good or bad Ahhhhhh.”, I replied, shaking her hand.

“Oh, it’s a good Ahhhh, trust me.”, she answered with a smile and a wink.

We talked for a while, then she excused herself to mingle with her other guests. The night moved along well and the food, music and company were all good. I guess it was about thirty minutes to midnight when Carrie pulled me aside privately.

“Jeff, you make sure you kiss my best friend properly for the New Year or you will have to answer to me, Mister.”, she demanded.

“Properly ?”, I quizzed her.

“She is crazy about you, Jeff. Open your eyes, don’t let her get away.”, she answered.

“Really ?”, I stammered.

“Oh, yea.”, she shot back, “Now go and be a very good boy. And she is my best friend, you mess up and you have to deal with me.”

We went back to the party, no one noticing we had been gone for a few seconds. I moved to the back of the main room and found Jen talking to a couple next to the fireplace. I walked over and joined them. A couple of minutes before midnight everyone started pairing off with their significant others getting ready for the countdown. Jen looked nervous as hell, giving me a very weak smile. Finally the crowd started…….

“Ten, nine, eight, seven………

I looked at Jen, she looked back at me. On the count of one, I put my arms around her and leaned in to kiss her. My lips found hers, soft and moist. Softly at first, but soon she was pressing her lips into mine. I felt the tip of her tongue on my lips. I opened my lips and my tongue found hers. She was a remarkable kisser. I am not sure how long we stood there, our lips together, but when we finally broke apart, the entire party applauded us. Obviously we had been lost in the moment.
Carrie moved over to me and whispered in my ear.

“You did real good, Jeff, real good.”, she whispered.

The party continued for about another hour, then people started filtering out. Jen and I found Carrie and thanked her for her hospitality. Carrie thanked us for coming and told me she hoped to see a lot more of me in the future. We waved our goodbye’s and left.

As I drove home, it came to me that not once that night, had I thought of Beth. In fact, I had a really good time, and felt totally at ease with Jen. We got on the interstate and headed west to home. We were nearing the exit I would have to take to bring Jen home when she leaned over to me.

“Jeff, I had a great time tonight, thank you so much.”, she said softly.

“I really enjoyed it as well, Jen.”, I replied.

“I really don’t want to go home.”, she whispered to me, placing her hand on my arm.

“Would you like to get some coffee or something ?”, I offered.

“No.“, she answered, “I want to go back to your place tonight, if it’s ok with you.”

I swallowed hard, I was not expecting this. I thought for a second, a million things running through my mind.

“Are you sure ?”, was all I could get out.

“Yes, I am sure.”, she quickly responded.

So I passed her exit and continued on to my house. I noticed that she had slowly worked her way to me and now was leaning against my shoulder. We arrived a few minutes later in my drive. We entered the house and moved to the great room.

“I really have to get out of this suit.”, I told her, “I am just not comfortable.”

“Oh, go ahead.”, she replied.

I went to the master bedroom and changed into jeans and a tee shirt and returned to find her looking out into the sun room. She looked at me and replied she wish we had stopped at her place so she could have gotten some lounging clothes. I told her I was sure I had something that would fit her and led her to one of the extra bedrooms that I had turned into a huge closet. I told her to help herself and closed the door behind me. She returned a short while later dressed in one of my NFL Jerseys and from what I gathered, just panties and bra underneath. The Jersey came down mid thigh, but looked very good on her.

“I hope you don’t mind ?”, she asked.

“Heck no, it looks better on you then it does on me.”, I laughed.

“Ok, lets go.”, she said, grabbing my hand, “I have to try out your Jacuzzi.”

I agreed and walked out to the sunroom. I turned on both the jets and the heater, and we both got in. The only lighting we had were the lights in the Jacuzzi. I noticed as she stepped in, I could see her figure, through the mesh holes of the jersey fabric. Because she always dressed so business like, I had never really seen her true form. She had a very thin waist, nice hips, and firm backside. She sat directly across from me in the Jacuzzi and extended her legs into my lap. I took her foot in my hand and began massaging it as we spoke. We talked for a few minutes, then she asked if she could sit next to me. When she got up the jersey clung to her body and I got a full view of her for the first time. She sat next to me gingerly, and reached over and took my hand, intertwined my fingers with her and looked at me.

“Jeff, its been a very long time since I have been with a man. You make me feel very special when I am with you. The little things you do, open doors, hold my chair.”, she said softly, “I want you to know, I trust you completely.”

With that she leaned over and kissed me. At first , it was just like the kiss we had shared hours early, but then it turned into something more demanding. Her hand on the back of my neck pulled my lips into hers firmly. My arms went around her, pulling her close, feeling her firm breasts against my chest. We kissed for a really long time without moving much else. Finally I decided to move on. Taking my arms from around her, I placed one on her waist and the other on her shoulder. As we continued to kiss, I lowered my hand from her shoulder to her right breast. I softly caressed her, being really surprised at the fullness of her breasts. She softly placed one hand on my thigh and began to lightly rub back and forth. By now, my cock was starting to respond to her touch, her lips. I ease my other hand off of her waist and placed it on the inside of her left thigh.

She shifted her weight and leaned back against the spa, pulling my mouth to hers. This girl could really kiss I thought, leaning over into her. She took her right hand and placed it on my left, which was still on her thigh. She slowly pulled on my hand until it met with the sheer fabric at the crotch of her panties. She then let go of my hand and reached up the leg of my shorts until her hand found my cock. She began to lightly stroke my cock with her fingers back and forth in a very unhurried pace. I moved my hand to the waistband of her panties and pushed my way inside. I continued lowering my hand until my fingers found her very wet pussy. I felt that she was completely shaved and felt extremely smooth to the touch. She arched her hips slightly in response to my fingers stroking the lips of her pussy.

“Oh that feels sooooooo good.”, she whispered in my ear. “God, its been so long.”

I slowly pushed the tip of one finger inside, trying to be as gentle as I could. Slowly she opened up to me, until I had one finger deep inside her. I began to move my finger in and out of her slowly, pausing as I came all the way out, to stroke her clit, then push back in all the way. From the way she was holding on to me and breathing in my ear, I could tell she was enjoying it. I slid my finger back out and began to concentrate on her clit. I noticed it had become quite large and very hard. I slowly became rubbing it in small circles, very, very lightly at first. She responded by wrapping her fingers around my cock and beginning a very slow but deliberate up and down movement.

I broke our kiss and had her turn and lay her back in my lap, her face looking up at me. I leaned over and my lips met hers again. I moved my hand down her flat stomach and into her panties once again. I soon found her very swollen clit again and resumed my attention to it. In this position, my hand was unrestricted and I had full access to her pussy. I continued to gently stroke her clit, every once in a while, pushing my finger inside her and pulling out her juice to lubricate her.

From the sound of her breathing, I sensed she was getting pretty close. I eased my lips from hers and she opened her eyes. She had large beautiful, brown eyes that were now completely glazed over.

“I hope you know, once I get started, I can’t stop.”, she panted .

“Jen, I want you to cum for me, right now.”, I whispered to her softly.

That was all it took. She threw her head back, arched her hips in the air. Her hand clamped down over mine and pressed both of them hard into her pussy.

“Oh, Oh, Oh, yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, Oh my God, I am cumminggggg……, Ohhhhhhhhh.

She bucked and pushed against my hand for what seemed like close to thirty seconds before she started to relax and lower herself back against me. She still had a firm grasp of my hand, that was still buried in her pussy. She eased the pressure of her hand on mine and started to coax my hand to resume its movements. I eased one finger inside her again and then began to rub her swollen and still rock hard clit again.

“I need more.”, she said, “Lets go inside and get comfortable.”

Chapter Thirteen

We moved down the hall into the master bath, dripping water in puddles as we went. She pulled my jersey off over her head in one movement, dropping it to the floor. I pulled her close to me , kissing her again. I reached around and unhooked her bra. She stepped back and let it fall to the floor exposing her firm ample breasts. With both hands she reached down and slid her panties down her legs to the floor and stepped out of them. She moved over to the bed, laid down on her back motioning for me to join her. I pushed my shorts down to the floor and pull my shirt over my head. I climbed over her supporting my weight on my arms. I kissed her once again, my tongue easing into her mouth to meet hers. She reached between us, and wrapped her hand around my rigid cock. I knew that it was not going to take much in the way of stimulation to get me off. I wanted to make sure she was completely satisfied before I had my orgasm.

“Oh God, this feels so good.”, she whispered in my ear, “Let me make you feel good Jeff.”

“Not yet.”, I whispered back, “Not yet.”

I moved down slightly taking one of her nipples between my nipples, gently sucking it into my mouth. She closed her eyes and tilted her head to the side. I slowly kissed down her stomach, lower and lower until my mouth was right above her pussy. I looked at the clean shaven, very slick mound that was in front of me. She had very long narrow lips, that slightly opened at the top to expose a large, very erect clit.

I eased my mouth down on her gently taking her clit into my mouth.
I heard her gasp as my lips first touched her. Her clit seemed to swell even more and became harder as I alternated sucking and flicking it with my tongue. I could feel the juices flowing freely out of her. They were sweet, fresh and smelled wonderful. She was really enjoying the attention I was giving her pussy as her moans were increasing, her hips moving up and down to match my tongue movements. I reached both hands under her and pulled her pussy into my mouth, pushing my tongue deep inside of her at the same time.

“Oh fuck………… Ohhhhhhhhhhh………”, she screamed as she exploded on my face.

“Suck it, suck it now….”, she urged.

I pulled my tongue from her pussy and sucked her swollen clit between my lips hard.

“Oh, Oh, another one…fuck….”, she screamed.

I kept sucking her clit, until she reached down with the palm of her hand and pushed against my forehead. She was trying to pry me off.

“Jeff, Jeff, stop for a second, Jesus Christ.”, she panted.

I released her pussy from my lips and moved up to her. I gently leaned over and kissed her lips. Her breathing was very labored and shallow, her face flushed.

“My God, no one has ever ate my pussy like that before. You are amazing.”, she whispered.

“Oh, I’m not done.”, I replied with a smile.

I leaned back down and slowly began to kiss her again. My hand slid down her body and found her drenched pussy. I eased one finger inside of her again, as I slipped my tongue inside of her mouth at the same time. She arched up in response, telling me she was not done yet. She put her hands on my chest and pushed me to the side. She rolled quickly over me and grabbed my cock with her right hand. She moved her mouth above me and eased my cock into her very wet and willing mouth. I felt tingling sensations up and down my body as she started a gentle suction on my cock. She had a way of using her lips and tongue in unison that was amazing. In less then a minute, I could feel my orgasm building in my balls. I reached down and lifted her mouth from me. I pulled her up and eased her on her back. I moved above her and placed my thighs between her. She reached down and grabbed my cock, guiding it toward her pussy. The head of my cock was now pressing against her very hot and very wet pussy.

“Go slow baby, its been a long time.”, she whispered.

I didn’t move, just keeping the head of my cock, against her opening. She placed her hands on my ass and started to push gently. I felt a slight pressure, then the head of my cock popped into her opening. She let out a sharp breathe as she felt it slip in. Once again she pushed against my ass, urging me deeper. Inch by inch, I sunk into her extremely tight pussy. Between the heat, the wetness and the tight walls, I knew I wouldn’t last long inside of her. Finally after a few moments, I was deep inside her. Her arms wrapped around my neck and she pulled me close.

I began to move inside of her, slowly not wanting to give her any discomfort. Soon she was moving her hips to match mine, her breathing becoming once more labored. I knew that any quicker pace would be the end of me. I slowed down, pushing deep inside of her until I was pressing hard against her clit. I could sense that she was close to another orgasm. Her hand slid down her body and started to reach between us. I pushed up, raising my body off of hers. I pulled my hips back and slid my cock half out of her. She reached down and her fingers found her clit. She began to rub herself with short quick strokes. I responded by pushing back into her and trying to match the speed of her strokes with thrusts of my cock. It took only about six to do it.

“Oh…my….fucking… god … I… am… cumming…”, she cried out.

I pushed hard into her as she pressed her hips into mine. I felt the walls of her pussy contract and squeeze as she rode out her orgasm. Over and over, I felt her spasm…. Then finally she relaxed on the bed.
She opened her eyes and looked into mine. I leaned down and kissed her again, long slow, gentle.

She broke the kiss, and rolled me over. She moved quickly down my body until I felt her warm breathe on my cock. With one motion she took my cock into her wet mouth, gently sucking it in. She wrapped her hand around the base of my cock, her other gently cupped my balls.

Soon she was pumping my cock into her mouth as her hand gently caressed me. I felt my nuts draw up tight against me, I think she felt it too, She stopped pumping my cock, placing both hands softly around it, leaving only the head in her mouth. Her fingers were softly flicking my shaft. I couldn’t take any more.

“Jen…baby…watch it.. I’m going to cum….”, I warned her.

But she had no intention of releasing my cock. Suddenly I felt the first blast of cum race out of cock into her waiting mouth. The force of it surprised her, she attempted to swallow quickly. Then jet after jet of cum, flowed freely into her mouth. She tried to swallow as fast as she could, but I could feel it running down leg and my balls. She stayed on my cock, sucking, milking every last drop out of me. When I was done she took my softening cock back into her mouth and gently

caressed me with her tongue.

I pulled her back up to me and she rested her head on my chest. My hand stroked up and down her back, softly tracing her spine. Her hand was stroking my chest, slowly , softly.

Sometime during the next few moments, we drifted off to sleep.